Lately, my life has been polarized. I’m extremely excited to marry the best guy I’ve known my entire life in December. However, even with the numerous applications and interviews, I have failed to find a job. I don’t feel like I have failed, though. Those decisions all come down to things that I have no control over and no power to influence. Thus, making me feel thoroughly helpless and frustrated.
I do wake up each day, albeit, very slowly. My family and friends are amazing and supportive. I’m happy to be around them while I try to establish a new chapter of my life. This fellowship makes me feel grounded.
What to do? My industry of expertise doesn’t seem to want to keep me in those roles. Making my way into the public school system as a substitute teacher or regular full time teacher sounds daunting. College teaching is attainable and I’m experienced, but it is also hard to get into if they already have people in mind for the roles. This situation makes me feel lost, hopeless.
This is just a small peek into the life that seems to march on as it has these several months… So, I keep praying and working towards anything and everything. I know there is a plan for me and I’m being encouraged to learn patience.
Patient and working diligently, I will wait.